Life Changing Decision

Abortion Story

I could not believe what I was hearing. My girlfriend had just told me the test was positive, she was pregnant. How could this be? What now? Life was good, or so I thought. And now she had to go and get herself pregnant.

My girlfriend, who we’ll call Susan, was an intelligent and very attractive young lady who desperately wanted marriage and a family. She wanted to birth the baby but my resolve to abort and her fear of being alone won the day for me. Besides, it is not a baby, I told her, just a mass of tissue. I mean, doesn’t our own government state this argument in their defense of abortion?

The plan was put into place by our family doctor and as fate would have it, the day finally arrived. It was a beautiful morning as we drove to our appointment for the procedure. There was no hint of the lifelong regrets and consequences we were about to put into motion. The doctor’s building was a familiar one and housed several floors of all types of doctors. No doubt somewhere in the building while we were killing our baby, some expectant couple was being told by their gynecologist the wonderful news that they would soon be parents. What a terrible contrast. As I sat in the abortionist office, I could not help but notice a very frightened young girl, probably 14 or 15, sobbing quietly as she waited her turn. A very sober looking older woman, whom I assumed was her mother, sat quietly beside her. That young girl would be an adult today and I’ve often wondered what effects the abortion has had on her life. As I waited, time seemed to drag by and I too started to become frightened. I insisted on going back to check on my girlfriend and found her still on the abortion table sobbing, I held her while she cried her heart out. I remember her saying between sobs that it hurt so bad.

When the abortionist put the vacuum hose into Susan’s womb, it took more than just a mass of tissue, it took a part of her, a part of her that can never be replaced. What we did not know at the time was that we had just made a choice that would change our lives forever. For Susan, the effect was almost immediate. She lost her self-respect and fell into self-destructive behavior. For me it took more time, but when it hit, it was like running into a brick wall. Father’s Day and Mother’s Day are almost unbearable. The tragedy of my decision is ever before me and my pain goes beyond description. I can only imagine how the mother must feel.

As a footnote, just before the abortion, I received a call from an acquaintance I knew from college. We had not seen each other for many years and lived miles apart. However, he said in his phone call that God had instructed him to come pray for me, so the distance did not matter. We made plans to meet at a nearby restaurant. The words that he told me still reverberate in my head. He said he did not know what I was doing or what I was about to do, but God had instructed him to come pray for me. He prayed, fulfilled his mission, and returned back to his home. I’ve not heard from him since. I recall a very strange sensation as I drove back home; however, I was deep in sin and sin will take you further than you have intended to go. My next stop would be the abortionist office, which would leave a stain on my soul that only the blood of Jesus Christ could cleanse. Unfortunately, there are consequences that follow a sinful life-style and while God changed my life, I still have to live with the consequences of my choices.

Abortions are a fact of life. I do not believe they will go away, at least in our lifetime. So it is important that we let the men, women, and children who are considering abortion know that the few minutes it takes to have an abortion can bring years (or even a lifetime) of regret.

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